Today was a long 16 hour day.. 11 hours of it driving.
I think this career is really shaping me into a better version of myself. Helping me drop parts of me I no longer need or habits that you could say, have expired. Today I couldnt find the entrance to my drop location and it was a trigger for me. I waited 20 minute in line at the wrong location (all buildings had the company name I was hopeful lol) and was late for my first time.
This career is showing me that even when I do all of the proper preparation I can humanly expect of myself.. I can not expect that to be enough. My position requires me to be resourceful for the most unexpected events every single day and its really annoying tbh lol but its also teaching me that its not my fault.. things out of my control will eternally be happening on this planet until I die. And there is only so much stressing I can do before I just accept that I am not responsible for reality but instead how I cooperate with it.